Sept. 12, 2010.

Yesterday I prayed with Khang and Leo.

That's significant enough for an entry on its own.

High school til Now

While driving to work this morning I popped in one of  my high school CDs and these two songs came on. I'm glad I haven't changed much. These songs were one of my top favorite songs and things haven't changed. The lyrics hit me; especially the first one.

I'm thankful that I have brothers who fit the description. No matter how far we are, how long we haven't spoken or how mad we get at each other I know, and you better know, that we lean and depend on each other to become a better man. 

Well...the second song...the second song doesn't really have a fitting role for me =). But! I'm really glad that now my closest brothers all have someone who lives true to the second song. Really, really glad =D.

So Close

You're so close to pushing me over the edge that I'm nervous. I kind of wish you don't but I secretly want you to so I can feel alive again.

Sitting, waiting, wishing.

Heroes vs Villains

We're either a hero or a villain. These two labels drive us to our ultimate want or ultimate goal; if you're either one, the chances of you getting there is better than being none.

You see, when you're a hero or a villain, your drive has a deeper root and will manifest itself in your actions and commitment more so than if you were neither. When you are neither, you have no reason. There is no will and there is no backbone to your resolve.

Does it really matter if we're a hero or a villain? On a personal front, to us, probably not. A hero will not want to be a villain and a villain will not care that he is one. To other people? Heroes are always welcome while villains are only judged by the final outcome of their doings and not their hearts.

To God? Neither hero nor villain exists. You're either a fruitful tree or a dried up piece of wood. Arguably both heroes and villains can produce fruit. So to those who want to succeed...I say the most important thing is to determine what you are of the two and stick to it. Find your resolve and know why you have it. Always remind yourself every single day of that once you know it.

Stupid Question

He asks me "If 95% of  the people know...then why do they still fail?"
"Knowing is different than doing."

Secular conversation about trading forex. Obvious faith based implications. Success for us is just like trading. Better execute what you know; even then, you won't win every time. But execute with faith and know that in the end you will come up on top.

Asia For What It Is

I went on an Asia trip last month with two of my best friends with the other one holding down the fort back here who ended up finding his own little friend. Was it good times? Sure...But when all is said and done and I came back from it all...with all the cute and funny stories I tell people...Asia left a bad taste in my mouth.

I have blogged about Asia. It's just private because I don't want to ruin it for you guys. Go experience it yourself. Maybe we'll have different views.

Your Eyes...So Tender

Wow, Asia trip is happening in less than 8 hours. A little rattled, don't know what to expect. What gifts to bring back...business decisions...my mind is clustered with thoughts and can't be at ease.

This trip is going to be awesome. I won't have internet for three weeks, hopefully...See if I can stand the fast. I also won't be able to talk to some people, I will terribly miss them as well. I won't get to see certain people c...and that reality hit me tonight as I realized that for some reason, some people have this calming effect on me. The reason I can stay cool and collected during any situations is that I think of them before I do myself. I can't last without some people's eyes, some people's smile and some people's voice. Crazy epiphany...scary epiphany.

The only regret on this Asia trip is that Roy and Justin couldn't come. Oh also that I don't have a girlfriend that did last minute checks on what I should bring with me =(. I disliked that one so much that I sabotaged the list Karen made for Leo =D.

I'll probably keep a journal for the trip and write it all up when I get back. I know you'll all miss my awesome posts =P.