Wednesday, December 30, 2009
23Now while he was in Jerusalem at the Passover Feast, many people saw the miraculous signs he was doing and believed in his name.[p] 24But Jesus would not entrust himself to them, for he knew all men. 25He did not need man's testimony about man, for he knew what was in a man.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
I usually don't make new year's resolutions and not because of that weak ass one liner people bust out: "New year's resolution: setting yourself up for disappointment."
I simply don't set one up because I think it's a stupid and weak concept. Why the hell would you wait half a year to change something if you realized in June that something was flawed about yourself?
If I have anything flawed enough about myself that I think deserves a resolution...I make it a [insert current month]
Plus, self improvement EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. is what we're supposed to be doing. Bearing the cross everyday means being better than yourself the previous day, unless you're perfect of course.
Anyway, since so many of you wondered, here it is. Kevin's new year resolution is to be more awesome. I know some of you are sincerely wondering if that's even possible. With God all things are possible. HAHA I cracked a joke and then placed God in it and you took it seriously for a second because it had God in it.
Anyway, on a more serious note: be wise in God and not in myself..whilst being more awesome.
AKA keeping it real AKA being nice isn't always the right thing to do AKA ...
AKA nothing related. AKA just saying it because dude goes off saying AKA like it's his job.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
As the boy grew older, he went to find more interesting toys but they were never like the one he had set his eyes on. Even when he found the bestest of them, better than the special one, inside...deep inside, he wondered if it would be like it. How that one is doing? Is it well polished? Taken care of? Is someone spending time with it so that it is not wasted? Although he gave all his love and attention to his most treasured toy when he played with it, it could never ever be 100%. He told his toys that and they knew. Unfair to his most treasured toys, he found himself feeling guilty at times. That one toy, that special toy which was never his, clung deeply to his desire to see it again, touch it again, spend time with it again. And so time went on. Nothing changed.
Then the boy grew into a man. Now with more life under his belt, the man has clearer eyes to see the world and all that is in it. That special toy, what does it mean to him now? The man thought and thought and finally came to a conclusion. A conclusion that is dark and bitter yet truthful. It destroyed the dream of the boy - to see, touch, and spend time with the toy he never had. The man realizes the foolishness of that dream. What did that toy do to deserve such high praise in the boy's eyes anyway? Nothing at all. The man wise from God realized that his mind is a powerful tool. If he places emphasis on a subject then it can and will become important, meaningless, drive for success, cause of failure or a deep desire. He had realized that all along, when he was a boy, he placed an unfair love onto that toy he couldn't have for no reason. And just like that, the special meaning of that toy is no more. The once shimmering special toy that held so much interest to the boy is now just any other toy to the man. The man with eyes of reason is not blinded by the amusement of the toy anymore. Overlooking the toy has never been so easy. Yet the man continues to search for the perfect toy - this time a toy that means something real not just perception: a sturdy, interesting, thought provoking, useful, beautiful, and unique toy. The man found that toy once...but it broke because he was careless with it. Broken toys are never revived. They're left there for someone else to pick up and fix. All the man could wish for is that another man, greater than himself would find that broken toy to piece it back together.
This time, the man sits patiently waiting to see which toy God will decide to drop into his lap. This time, the man promises God that he'll take good care of this toy. This time, the man can give his whole heart undivided to the toy because the once special toy no longer holds a dividend for his love. This time, it will finally be different.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
And those who aren't? If all are called then the wording would have been different no?
Some aren't called O_O. Some people have never heard of the Way but there are those that hear but do not hear. Maybe those are the ones that aren't called...
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
12 For though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you again the first principles of the oracles of God; and you have come to need milk and not solid food. 13 For everyone who partakes only of milk is unskilled in the word of righteousness, for he is a babe. 14 But solid food belongs to those who are of full age, that is, those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil.
One who is spiritually mature can be said to have greater faith. Those with faith act Godly rather than worldly. Faith vs Deeds. Deeds won't get us to heaven but through deeds we show faith. This thing goes in circles and explodes the mind much like so: Pinocchio says "my nose will grow NOW!"
But I guess to a lesser degree. Deeds ALONE won't get us there ;). Yet only God can see deeds done through faith while man cannot tell the difference. Why would men need to praise us for having faith? Why do we care? Glory wasn't meant for men.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Uh oh, what?
Monday, December 21, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
I have 3 issues I want to talk about. This isn't going to be a warm and fuzzy post. This will show the other side of me, instead of some care bear Kevin this is the Kevin from "When Bears Attack" on Discovery TV.
1. Respect. Now I'm one of those people that are SELDOM disrespected, so when it happens my mind is blown. In my head I'm thinking "is this really happening?" A fit of rage shoots into my head and I think "does this kid know who he's talking to?" At the rooftop party there was this girl Esther out smoking with a bunch of people. I went outside to talk to Roy and she says "Get the F out of here, nothings going on. Leave" WOWWWWWWW. I don't think she knows how hard of a Kevining she was about to receive. I would have destroyed her with my words so hard I honestly think she would have jumped off the roof. And I was soooooooooo temped. I played it off, explaining me and Roy are boys and I just wanted a man hug. Thank you God for keeping me wise - to your glory forever and ever. Amen.
2. Calm the f down. I crack lots of jokes and this one kid Jin was there sitting with some girl Gloria so I jokingly winked at her as in "sweet hook up" and then gave him a head nod. Friendly gesture really. HAHAHA the guy goes into a wildman rage. Like face went BLANK hair turned yellow and went super saiyan. He gets up and starts mumbling shibal sekki like a toughie ;). People know I'm calm and collected and I've given my fair share of warnings on if my top blows over. They've never seen the ugly side of me and thank God for that. Really. This kid acting tough and mumbling crap to me REALLY wanted me to crush his kneecaps. I really wanted him to throw a punch at me so I could knock him out then place his knees on a ledge and stomp on them one by one. Destroy one leg and watch him regret acting tough and saying shibal sekki like he knows me while I line up the other one to be stomped on. And it will get stomped on. But funny thing is, maybe out of his crew he never ever got disrespected? Although I don't see how my actions were disrespectful for him to take it to the extreme. People need to calm the f down before they get hurt. Really =). Thank you Lord for stopping him from throwing the first hit at me. I didn't want to receive the second part of that test haha. Aren't you proud of me that I didn't break his knees even though you know how badly I wanted to? That wasn't to you readers, only God knows how badly I wanted it. To all my boys who are reading this and think you're tough shi, don't act like idiots and provoke other people. You might meet someone like me and be never able to walk again. There are people that care about themselves and their life much less. People who don't care will do crazy things. It's not worth it. Be smart about it. And yeah, you think you're crazier and tougher. I know. But still, not worth it.
3. Controlling the situation. I'm sure you guys know, when theres a situation I'm usually on the fore front handling it. I'm good at it because my heads always leveled and clear even if it is filled with rage. I see the bigger picture and have my priorities straight. I'm willing to sacrifice my face for the greater good. Some people aren't. You see, when people are raging and need to be pampered, (yes pampered because you raging drunks are a bunch of pussy ass crying babies) people can do it using love or fear. Mike uses fear. He throws people up against the wall with his forearm barring their throat telling them "You don't know me. Calm down. I don't want to lay you out" I'm not saying I won't resort to that because you all know how angry of a boy I am proven by post 2, but the thing is why not try the soft stuff first? When I see things get handled like that I just think what an idiot. Provoking another drunk person is like a 50/50 gamble. I hate gambling because the risk isn't smart nor measures up to the rewards (BAM, FINANCE 101'd). Thank you God for giving me a big heart and eyes that see a bigger picture. Use it so that I may stop dumbass situations from happening to keep non believers away from judging us negatively. To your glory forever and ever. Amen.
Thank You for giving me the gifts of perceiving eyes. Have them always be scanning and looking for things that are wrong so that You may use me to correct them. Instill my heart with peace and love so that I may not fail You. Battle my demons for me as I alone cannot. Thank you Lord for giving me a sharp tongue. Keep it sharp with reason like a well assassin's blade so that I may slay demon in other people without them knowing. For them knowing brings credit to me and not You. Keep my tongue away from forking so that I will not speak words of a serpent and propel people to do idiotic things. I hate idiots. But yet You love placing me with them...You sly one You.
All things I do, let it reek with your presence.
Man I have to work out today but feel owned from alcohol. My working out was a way for me to keep in touch God. Shall I let a bit of alcohol get in the way? I think not. As stupid as it is, it's the other half of my QT. I am a QT. Alcohol is talking, I swear.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Friday, December 18, 2009
Why is it? Does it not provoke thought? Am I far off the margin? Or are you guys turned off because the title starts with readings?
I guess getting pwned in the head IS more interesting...NOT.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Since I started working out again, I've been getting muscle pains everywhere on my back so I use this muscle relief rub that leaves me feeling minty fresh. Anyway, I put it on after shower and whatever so I leave it in the washroom by all my other stuff that I use to pretty myself up AKA gel. Anyway, totally irrelevant. So I gel my hair and ran out. Half way towards the stairs (yes I take stairs because I am win) my head starts to feel oddly cold. I think "wow, I'm getting more fit. I walk so fast my head feels wind." The mild wind cutting through my hair starts to cut to my scalp then to my brain. IQ and nose kicks in and I realize "Oh crap. Something is minty and it isn't my breath. Remember when I said the muscle relief thing was irrelevant? I lied. It's really relevant actually...so relevant that it was on my mind all morning... I RUN BACK. Now my head is burning like a damn blaze in the BC forests. I take off all my clothes and jump into the shower only to realize water does NOT help. I wasn't man enough to use cold water to shower and hot water was scorching my head even more. For a moment I thought of running out naked to get milk to pour onto my head. And I did. But we had no milk. F.
In the end I manned up and washed it out with a glop of man shampoo. I removed my muscle rub from my washroom in order to stop future pwnage. What can I say? I'm a man of insight.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
So many of us conform to what people expect out of the social norm. Those who don't are persecuted just as it was thousands of years ago, although to a much lesser degree. Instead of beheading physically it is a beheading on the social level. Who hangs out with losers? That guys friggen weird, peace. That girl's so different, staying away from her. We can't help but think of these things because we fear what we can't relate to. No human can admit to liking the unknown (except girls who have a thing for mysterious guys and stupid blondes in horror films). That is our foolish human nature and who isn't guilty of it? There are people who are different, but with logic, and we can accept them because what they do is relatable; but, to the ones we can't form a bond with...do we even make the effort to understand? Chances are no. We scream and rally for them to be taken away just as Paul had experienced.
We do so many foolish things while we point our fingers at those who judge and persecute. Ironic isn't it?
Having wisdom is the knowledge of God...Being wise is DOING the things of God. Who's really wise?
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
I want to level up and pwn too.
RPG RANDOM BATTLE: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FEE6vmlRdTM
Monday, December 14, 2009
You make me smile with the smallest things. Sometimes I don't even know why. I just do. And...oh yea, I never lied to you =).
Saturday, December 12, 2009
That's right, they shook off the dust and went on. That's how life is and how we're supposed to react. Wrong deeds and evil thing being done to us will never cease and we shouldn't expect it to. However, we have the responsibility to keep on walking no matter what and dusting off this dirt that has been put onto us. Sometimes it gets messy and its mud thats flung onto us instead of dry dirt. Still, as messy as it is, we brush it off with our hand wash up and move on. No one should stand there crying and complaining about how dirty they are. Everyone faces trials and tribulations. You're nothing special, don't expect to stay clean.
I found out that someone I went to school with died recently. He committed suicide by jumping off a bridge. Why? No one really knows. But one rumor, and quite reliable, I might add, is that it was because he couldn't find a job. Now I am confused to as HOW I should feel; but, I'm very level headed when I say that I am angry and feel no sympathy. What a weak person. What an idiot. Does something so small warrant ending his life? Has he no heart or sense of responsibility? He took the easy way out - a coward's closing scene in a movie called life.
Although feeling no remorse for him, my heart aches for his family and friends. I can't even begin to imagine what it feels like to be the parents. Blame, regret, anger, hate...his death did nothing but make life worse for everyone else. Why? Why are people so weak? Is that what it's like to be hopeless? Such a depressing thought. I can't even understand let alone sympathize with people who'd do such a weak act. When life has you covered in mud, don't just stand there waiting to suffocate. Do something. If it's not coming off scrub a little harder.
Friday, December 11, 2009
BTW, let me say this...I'm so happy anon is a girl sigh...I was beginning to think it's a guy posing as a girl.
STUPID GIRL! HAHAHAHA sigh...you had me going though. But thanks to your kind heart for coming out with the truth. I bet you panicked when I asked you for your Korean name huh ;)? I was on to you from day one =P. LIAR LIAR pants on skittles.
You should see me now, I'm sitting in my office with lips ear to ear smiling. I look like a babo.
<3 Thank you for the fun, thank you for the relief.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
After careful examination through facebook wall to wall on typing habits and sentence structure...I have determined that Anon is...............................a Kim.
But which Kim is it? They both talk so alike...Laura talks with so many smiley faces and Linda talks with them too. BUT Linda's writing is inconsistent with "you" and "u" and uses plenty of abbreviation/short forms whereas Laura uses it sparsely.
It's more likely to be Laura from that sense but why would she be anon? OH UPDATE James confirmed it's not her. Linda...it's you. And if it's not...I have no freaking clue who you are because I'm out of L and A people no matter how many letters...unless you're actually not Korean O_O.
Anyway, I reviewed things. The only two pieces of information you gave me were a SUGGESTION which your name begins with L and ends in A AND "no Korean."
Let's clear things up, confirm that your first name begins with L and ends with A. Also, you need to clarify what "no Korean" means. You're name of L and A is not a Korean name? Or does it mean you aren't Korean?
At least I know you're Canadian. Honor with a "u" in it.
Are you on my msn list?
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
You intrigue me to no ends and I could not take my mind off of you for the past 2 days and night. I haven't been able to work properly because of you. Please tell me, what facts do I have wrong? Please don't be a guy as well...being intrigued by one of the same sex makes me feel like I belong near James' store.
P.S. Shall I label you as my secret admirer?
Anyway, look at how powerful this one line is.
To you first, God, having raised up His Servant Jesus, sent Him to bless you, in turning away every one of you from your iniquities.”
God serves us but is not our servant.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
I love movies that inspire humanity to be something more...and this is one of them. A father who's love for his child is so strong he's willing to bear all pain on himself so his child would not be affected or tainted by the ugliness of this world. People like him are millions times more brave and selfless than any super hero could dream of. For every ounce of strength he doesn't have, he must make up for with love and spirit.
The father jokes about everything and laughs about anything when he's alongside his kid. They say people who laugh or smile a lot are doing so to cover fear and lack of confidence. Have they thought of it from a different angle? People who laugh and smile ARE doing it to cover fear and lack of confidence - not their own, but those around them. A smile drops the guard between humans and lets them trust each other. A smile goes a long way when times are tough and embedded between every "h" and laced in every "a" of a laugh is a whisper of the words "it's ok, lean on me. I'll be here."
Every whisper brings together a bond. Every bond musters a greater strength. And every ounce of strength is what gets us through tough times. I guess no matter what the pain or how much of it there is...we can always smile more, laugh more, and live more. After all, that's what makes life beautiful.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Sunday, December 6, 2009
"Can you understand me? Are you awake?"
"So when can you pick me up?"
"K, call me when you're coming then"
"Don't fall asleep again!"
Saturday, December 5, 2009
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Monday, November 30, 2009
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Sunday, November 22, 2009
“Blessed be the Lord God of Israel,
for he has visited and redeemed his people
69 and has raised up a horn of salvation for us
in the house of his servant David,
70 as he spoke by the mouth of his holy prophets from of old,
71 that we should be saved from our enemies
and from the hand of all who hate us;
72 to show the mercy promised to our fathers
and to remember his holy covenant,
73 the oath that he swore to our father Abraham, to grant us
74 that we, being delivered from the hand of our enemies,
might serve him without fear,
75 in holiness and righteousness before him all our days.
76 And you, child, will be called the prophet of the Most High;
for you will go before the Lord to prepare his ways,
77 to give knowledge of salvation to his people
in the forgiveness of their sins,
78 because of the tender mercy of our God,
whereby the sunrise shall visit us  from on high
79 to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death,
to guide our feet into the way of peace.”
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
On the, rise to the top, many drop, don't forget
In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets
This is the number one rule for your set
In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets
If through our travels we get seperated, never forget
In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets"
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
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Friday, November 13, 2009
Truly, I say to you, all sins will be forgiven the children of man, and whatever blasphemies they utter, 29 but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit never has forgiveness, but is guilty of an eternal sin”— 30 for they were saying, “He has an unclean spirit."
:O:O:O:O:O??????????????? What do you guys think? Grace doesn't forgive all? My mind is blown right now. PEWPEW