The A Cup

I'm blunt. So blunt half my blog posts have no introduction. Bam. Straight to the point. I don't know what a comma is. Simple. Clean. Meaningful.

That's who I am and those are the people I get along with. I see no need to change because I attract people that are real. Fake people see me and run because they shudder at my approach to things. You're being a dumbass? I'll call you out. I think you're awesome? You'll get complimented. Fake people can only accept the latter. Fake people don't get the latter from me.

Keeping it A cup is cool in a worldy manner and for the most part no one will really complain.

God's complaining though. And I can't do it any longer.

Keeping it real like A cup tittays will no longer resound in my life. I'm gonna stuff the shit out of that bra. Why? Fake people like the big boobs. It attracts them. They're not capable of seeing through meaningless things to the meaningful.

But if I deem myself the realest then I better be able to to see through my own mask. Fake people need Christ too. Me keeping it comfortably real isn't bringing fake people to Christ. So as real as I can keep it, I've decided to change. If I must be fake to make fake people happy, then I will. Commas will be introduced; heck, even semi colons.

If being fake will turn fake people real...then I will become them.

^"19 Though I am free and belong to no one, I have made myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. ²⁰ To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. ²¹ To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God’s law but am under Christ’s law), so as to win those not having the law. ²² To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all people so that by all possible means I might save some. ²³ I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings."


Paully kept it pretty real. Dude was all about the A cups for sure.

So Much Going Through My Mind

Recently so much things have been going through my mind. So many things about life, relationships, God. But I got no one to spill it to. Even if I do, they just hear it but don't really get me.

It's cold and lonely inside my mind. There's one person that gets me. But I'm scared to share. Somewhere down the line I know the coldness will thaw. Small embers, sparks will fly; and we'll be slow dancing in a burning room.

I don't like playing with fire. I hate getting burned. But that warmth is awfully fascinating and it's hard to keep my hand away from the soft comfort that it brings. If even momentarily relief, I may succumb.

Ghandi Says...

You should not have...

1. Wealth without work

2. Pleasure without conscience

3. Knowledge without character

4. Commerce without morality

5. Science without humanity

6. Worship without sacrifice

7. Politics without principles

Now, you nod along as you read; but can you explain why? What could happen if the latter is attained without the former? Deep thoughts.

15 Things

1. I saw the most beautiful girl again. I fluttered inside when she smiled at me and gave me a cut eye at the same time.
2. Glory.
3. I NEED inspiration to keep me plowing through to what God's told me to chase.
4. If God says no, I'm man enough to deal with it.
5. On Saturday I heard her live. Her voice got me through endless study nights in high school. Low fi crappy quality but it got me to where I need to be; where I am now. (By endless study nights I mean literally 2 hrs per school year hahaha. But she got me through it)
6. I listen to music in order to stay focused and motivated; others I surveyed listen to it for completely different reasons. Respect to music: one of the most powerful things in creation.
7. My Korean is getting worse.
8. So is my Chinese.
9. I respect Roy more today than two days ago; I'm proud of him too.
10. My mustache is starting to look ugly(er).
11. I feel God when I work the heavy bag.
12. My xbox broke. I didn't feel any anger. =)
13. I'm getting more and more hungry nowadays (concerning food, goals, God)
14. I love my family but have a hard time expressing it. I hope I don't have anything withheld with my future gf/wife/family.
15. I love my friends; If I'm harsh it's because I care.

You are Beautiful No Matter What They Say; You are Ugly No Matter What You Think

Being bold and humble is just what the title says; it's a mentality that's hard to grasp and easily stepped over into unbalanced territory. 

One could easily seem arrogant and another lacking confidence trying to juggle these juxtaposing perspectives on their own self image. Personally, I have no trouble  living out the first one. I couldn't care less about what people think of me. You think I'm awesome? I know. You should. You think I'm abrasive? That's nice. 

I don't live my life the way I do to get your approval of who I am. But the poison of this is that I start to lose sight of who I want to become. Sometimes, caring about other people's judgement on you forces you maintain upkeep on your character. The deadlier poison is that YOUR CHARACTER is tied to the string of another persons opinion; regardless of whether that person is an idiot or not.

I realized that at the end of the day you keep yourself in check by realizing you're terribly ugly. Try your best to get better and refine those rough edges. But when people put you down; shrug it off. Who are you to fear another person? They're just people. 

I'm on Romans now on my daily readings. Today it spoke mountains to me. Truth is, I'm an upstanding guy. I know it, you know it. But just because that's the case it doesn't mean my refinement stops there. You don't know it, I now know it. Read Romans 1:18-1:...whatever end of chapter is. 

We all look in the mirror every day. Those verses is the spiritual mirror that we too often ignore. We make sure we're beautiful no matter what people say when we look in the mirror. Makeup, hair, moisturizer, whatever other things you guys/girls/HeShes/SheHes do (I do none of this btw, I'm naturally stunning). When's the last time you took a look in the spiritual mirror. Do you even realize one existed? Do you know what the word repent means? Are you even smart enough to realize how much you sin? I knew it existed; I never looked. I knew the word; just not well enough. I know I sin; but it's more than I thought. 

And as grim as this entry is...I'm the one smiling. Because no matter what I think and no matter what they say: even an ugly, crooked, sinful and dreaded human like me remains beautiful and flawless in God's holy eyes. And thankful I am, with a smile I prayed: Jesus, thanks for everything buddy. Amen.

Reality of Dreams; Dreaming of Reality

"A successful life is a progression of successful years, which is a progression of successful months, which is a progression of successful weeks, days, hours, minutes, and moments. Success is the achievement of a goal or set of goals. Therefore, to be successful, you must have goals not only for the long term, but for the moment; and each goal should be related to the other, unified by a single purpose - happiness and fulfillment in life"

We dream our dreams and forget its purpose. Even when reality turns into our dream it unwinds into a trapping nightmare.

Some can't even live their nightmares because the simple fact of "some dream and never do. Others do and never dream. But then there are those very few who dream, and do what they dream."


Master these and you will be successful.

Dayum

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