NOT Readings

Wow today's study wasn't in the form of studying but youtube videos. Joel Osteen and Bill Graham fail...false preachings???!?

Should God be in the Center of Our Lives?

How the preachers keep preaching and people who think they're right with God keep talking. Place God at the center of YOUR LIFE! Keep talking because I'm not listening. Go convince someone else.

We think in order to be with God we have to focus on Him alone and nothing else. Why? Because that's what we were taught. By pastors and people who seems righteous. If God is the center of my life then I am revolving around Him. My eyes set on him only my back turned against the world. This paints the wrong picture of how we're supposed to live. Now if someone bumps you and turn you 180 then you're back's against God and your eyes set on the world. What now? Don't even see Him anymore right? Then now you walk and He becomes a distant object behind your back and that's that.

Instead we should carefully examine how we should treat God. Is it really right to hog Him to ourselves in the center? Having alone time and making every second of the day be about you and Him? I don't think so. Before you get all :O:O OMG WTF BBQSAUCE on me, stfu and listen.

God shouldn't be the center. OOOOOOOOOOOOH Kevin's bad, what a bad Christian! Well big deal; aren't we all? God away from the center of our lives because it limits us and limits Him. He should be the bond that holds us with everything we do in life. Friendships. Relationships. Work. Decisions. Recreations. Anything. Everything. These bonds should be withheld and blessed by the strength of God so that good may come out of it and evil may not come of it. Those on the other end of the bonds will also see the work of God rather than you hording Him to yourself while centering God in your life. And if you do fall in one bond and God drops out of that, at least you have other Godly bonds to keep you straight. Diversifying risk just like a stock portfolio. So next time you think to yourself "I need to take my focus away from school, relationships, friendships, work, sports or whatever in order to focus on God" think again. Don't be so stubborn and open your eyes. That's just us wrapping up excuses in a righteous bow tie to make ourselves sound like we're aiming at the righteous path in our walk. Next time instead of focusing AWAY other things, why don't you trust in God a little more and place Him INTO the things you are doing? OHHHHH sounds bad...now Kevin's saying place God along into other activities. God's secondary now. OOOOOOOOOOOOH.

Keep God revolving around you so you may never take your eyes off of Him. If life hits you into a 180 you're still looking at Him. Keep God surrounding you so that others may see Him and receive Him, so that you may share all that is good. Let God surround you so that when you fall grace will soften the pain.

Whether you're convinced, sympathizing or loathing my view, I really don't care. What I do care for is that you think for yourself and not blindly listen to what others preach or say. When you put something in your mouth do you not question what it is? Then when others "feed" us, should we not question what it is?

Glimpse of Happiness in a Void

*EDIT* never typing Korean again in my blog. Messed up the format at the bottom. Have fun reading -_-

Today while working out at the gym, I see this little chubby kid run down the stairs by the weights. His lips begin to widen and soon stretch ear to ear almost as if he wanted to be Julia Roberts. What made him do such a perfect impersonation was that he saw this huge yoga ball (you know, the big bouncy balls that you do crunches on or other gymtards [gym retards] who like to do squats on.) Well, he quickly ran to it and started bouncing the ball up and down, up and down. With each successive bounce back to his chubby little fingers his lips were closer to his ear lobes. His shiny eyes with hope and TRUE joy locked on to his fathers. Hoping to share this joy with one of the most important people in the world to him, he kept on bouncing the ball and his eyes screamed "Daddy, look! Isn't it awesome??"

It was so awesome to him. He was so unselfish and willing to share.

Yet the father silently stared back with no emotion. He waves his hand over and says "let's go, come on." The kid stays put, lips a little further from the earlobes now. The father doesn't budge. The child's moon crescent shaped eyes made of joy were now turning back to its normal olive shapes. Happiness that wanted to be shared and was selflessly offered was shot down just like that.

You see, a lot of the times we don't understand this simple thing. What's important to you may not be important to others; what's important to others may be worthless to you. So when someone shares something with you and you don't give a rat's ass or damn to respond or even acknowledge them, great evil is being done. ESPECIALLY to kids. This child that I saw today may have drawn to the conclusion that sharing things you love will get you rejected. Maybe it's better not to share happiness with other people. What a cruel thing to learn especially since it demolishes hope. A father who couldn't be bothered to walk over for 30 seconds to bounce that yoga ball with his kid while sharing a smile could have taught his son a very wrong lesson. What's worse he could have placed a barrier between their relationship.

I almost forgot to put this entry. Leaving 노래방, Matt ran off to finch market. He came back with two 김밥. I went to a sushi buffet today and was not hungry at all. I politely turned him down.

He looked over and said "I bought it for you!" Haha...I couldn't help but smile inside knowing God

wanted to remind me of the lesson I learned today. So I took it and watched him munch down on

his. As I'm writing this I'm eating it. And yes Matt, I failed at peeling the wrapper too.

Thank you for sharing a glimpse of your happiness with me, it's more delicious than any 김밥

I've had in a long time. I will not be the one to discourage people from trying to share their joy.

I will not be that kind of a father.

I will not be like my father.

I will be like my Father.

Readings Luke 17-18

We should forgive those who sin against us but repent infinitely. What do we do to those who don't care to repent?

Readings Luke 14-16

"And he said to them, “You are those who justify yourselves before men, but God knows your hearts. For what is exalted among men is an abomination in the sight of God."

Precisely why I don't have to worry about what people think of me when I say the things that I do. I'm confident because of it; because I know in the grand scheme of things their view on who I am, whether true or not, has no real impact. Sorry, it's the truth :).

Friends, family and God matter since their judgement would be what's in my heart.

Readings Luke 12-13

No one worry Listen to that Bob Marley song right?

Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat, nor about your body, what you will put on. 23 For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. 24 Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds!

Let's amen to that. I kept my word. I'm still awake yet to shut my eye. I read. I thought. I wrote.

On a side note...pretty sad how sometimes even I have to be drunk to say the things it truly want to say and do the things I truly want to do. Why so cruel fate? Why so cruel?

Readings Luke 10-11

Why focus so much on the outside when what matter most in on the inside? So simple no?