15 Things

1. I saw the most beautiful girl again. I fluttered inside when she smiled at me and gave me a cut eye at the same time.
2. Glory.
3. I NEED inspiration to keep me plowing through to what God's told me to chase.
4. If God says no, I'm man enough to deal with it.
5. On Saturday I heard her live. Her voice got me through endless study nights in high school. Low fi crappy quality but it got me to where I need to be; where I am now. (By endless study nights I mean literally 2 hrs per school year hahaha. But she got me through it)
6. I listen to music in order to stay focused and motivated; others I surveyed listen to it for completely different reasons. Respect to music: one of the most powerful things in creation.
7. My Korean is getting worse.
8. So is my Chinese.
9. I respect Roy more today than two days ago; I'm proud of him too.
10. My mustache is starting to look ugly(er).
11. I feel God when I work the heavy bag.
12. My xbox broke. I didn't feel any anger. =)
13. I'm getting more and more hungry nowadays (concerning food, goals, God)
14. I love my family but have a hard time expressing it. I hope I don't have anything withheld with my future gf/wife/family.
15. I love my friends; If I'm harsh it's because I care.

You are Beautiful No Matter What They Say; You are Ugly No Matter What You Think

Being bold and humble is just what the title says; it's a mentality that's hard to grasp and easily stepped over into unbalanced territory. 

One could easily seem arrogant and another lacking confidence trying to juggle these juxtaposing perspectives on their own self image. Personally, I have no trouble  living out the first one. I couldn't care less about what people think of me. You think I'm awesome? I know. You should. You think I'm abrasive? That's nice. 

I don't live my life the way I do to get your approval of who I am. But the poison of this is that I start to lose sight of who I want to become. Sometimes, caring about other people's judgement on you forces you maintain upkeep on your character. The deadlier poison is that YOUR CHARACTER is tied to the string of another persons opinion; regardless of whether that person is an idiot or not.

I realized that at the end of the day you keep yourself in check by realizing you're terribly ugly. Try your best to get better and refine those rough edges. But when people put you down; shrug it off. Who are you to fear another person? They're just people. 

I'm on Romans now on my daily readings. Today it spoke mountains to me. Truth is, I'm an upstanding guy. I know it, you know it. But just because that's the case it doesn't mean my refinement stops there. You don't know it, I now know it. Read Romans 1:18-1:...whatever end of chapter is. 

We all look in the mirror every day. Those verses is the spiritual mirror that we too often ignore. We make sure we're beautiful no matter what people say when we look in the mirror. Makeup, hair, moisturizer, whatever other things you guys/girls/HeShes/SheHes do (I do none of this btw, I'm naturally stunning). When's the last time you took a look in the spiritual mirror. Do you even realize one existed? Do you know what the word repent means? Are you even smart enough to realize how much you sin? I knew it existed; I never looked. I knew the word; just not well enough. I know I sin; but it's more than I thought. 

And as grim as this entry is...I'm the one smiling. Because no matter what I think and no matter what they say: even an ugly, crooked, sinful and dreaded human like me remains beautiful and flawless in God's holy eyes. And thankful I am, with a smile I prayed: Jesus, thanks for everything buddy. Amen.

Reality of Dreams; Dreaming of Reality

"A successful life is a progression of successful years, which is a progression of successful months, which is a progression of successful weeks, days, hours, minutes, and moments. Success is the achievement of a goal or set of goals. Therefore, to be successful, you must have goals not only for the long term, but for the moment; and each goal should be related to the other, unified by a single purpose - happiness and fulfillment in life"

We dream our dreams and forget its purpose. Even when reality turns into our dream it unwinds into a trapping nightmare.

Some can't even live their nightmares because the simple fact of "some dream and never do. Others do and never dream. But then there are those very few who dream, and do what they dream."


Master these and you will be successful.

Dayum

Yo in case you been under a rock for the past week, here's to you.

http://www.justintimberlake.com/news/video_of_day_justin_jimmy_fallon_and_the_roots_homage_to_hip_hop

Yo in case you've been all up on this, watch it again.

Cuz it's that damn good. Props to the coolest white boys...next to MM.

I watch this 3x before I work. Productivity down 50%, hiphop love up 100.

5 Things

I do this every September because I'm a hipster and don't like new year resolutions..

These are 5 things I want to accomplish by Sept. 23, 2011.

1. Continue forex education/trading with discipline
2. Reach my body fat percentage goal of sub 13%, at least
3. Be consistent with God; consistency shows true love
4. Develop and expand at least ONE new product for SMC
5. Grow a mean mustache

HAHAAH I'm joking about 5. But our small group was talking about mustaches yesterday and Roys obv got a fetish with them. Then we all joked about growing one. I'm pretty sure I'm physically incapable of growing one but I'll likely try? Chances are I'll look like a dirty Mexican named Jorge (that's whore-hey for you noobs aka George in Spanish).

P.S. Reggie pronounces it MOO-stash. I find that hilarious. MOO.

What is Love?

Baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me no more. That's what you were thinking.

Anyway, I saw my mom yesterday and we were talking about life. Somehow love came up and we covered every type of love I can think of. In theme, the common thing that holds true for all of them is consistency.

Loving someone doesn't mean you won't hurt them and being loved doesn't mean you are insusceptible to pain. But to love someone is to be consistent to them. What does that mean?

I have no clue. Consistent in what sense? You tell me. I find it amusing and terribly funny when people proclaim they love so and so. Really, 90% of you have no clue what love is. The other 10% that do know love should be humble enough to respect the word.

I wish love were more simple...wish it wasn't so hard or difficult. Maybe it is. Maybe we just make it seem otherwise.

Open your eyes

If you do...you'd learn so much more from God. Ain't that a bitch...my eyes are so small =(.