Monday, June 21, 2010

Dear Self

What happened to you? I see your shell and nothing inside.

You used to be so much stronger and strong willed. Has one bump on the road crippled you for good? Your drive, commitment, hunger and willpower melted away with the snow from past seasons.

You preach integrity and honor yet cannot even hold up your own standards 80% of the time. I only ask you to do well 80% of the time and you can't. Stop failing yourself.

Humble your mind and accept your inadequacies. Open your heart and accept others. Having a soft heart isn't good enough. You need hard hands to carry out that will.  Don't pity yourself and play victim; it isn't an excuse to be passive. It'd ridiculous that you have to write yourself a letter and show others how weak you are. But you need it. If other people see the ugly you will be forced to change.

I think life has dwindled you down. Before you thought you were Atlas and could carry the world on your shoulders; only now to realize you need support from those around you. Too proud to seek it; too foolish to accept it.

You think that finding the right girl will mitigate all this ugliness you possess. Who are you kidding? No girl should be with you with this much darkness burdened onto them. They don't deserve to share your baggage.

Mistakes were made. You can't change it. This is the ugly truth and said so harshly to yourself for the world to see. Keep your head up kid, you still have a long way to go. Every choice we make has a good and evil consequence. Just make sure you try your best to lean towards the light.

Oh, and stop falling for girls so easily. You idiot.

2 comments:

  1. super real. monday = super super real day. keep your head up GG.

    im glad you're being stretched.

    p.s this song is so fantastic. 10 points for song choice.

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  2. wish i could be there to have our heart to hearts kevin. i really miss it :(

    let's have a webbie date soon?

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